Damn today was good and bad. I mean it was good because practice went real well and I was getting off as a goon and then the night rally my best friend Amanda was looking oh so good. Then on top of that I won homecoming king. They were all like " Jesse smith" I was like WTF me lol. Yea it was a pretty good day. Then my future girlfriend Jaz starts bitching at me like u did something wrong. She thinks I asked out some hoe and I really didn't so she needs to stop. Here we go again same shut different year. I know she still talks to jermaine so maybe that the reason I don't ask her out. Any but overall it was a really special day like I'm hella happy... Yeeee

Wow it seems like love is never found anymore. It's never achieved nor is it valuEd. What the he'll did I do that was so wrong? All I ever did was love you and your the one who chose t push me out if your life. Mayb you and jermaine should have stayed together and saved me all the heartache. Same shit different year and I'm tired of all the drama: al the trials and tribulations should hav been long gone already yet they keep popping back up. Damn can I ever catch a break. We talks about movingto Alabama together but how can we manage elsewhere when u can't even get over the ex man in the first place. I'm not dumb I know what goes on in ur text messages with him and it hurts me cuz you accuse me of cheating. Maybe we are never meant to be. Maybe life has no meaning. Maybe I'll just end it all with one quick bullet.. Cody I'm starting to miss u in heaven bit brother.

Now or never

Caught up in the web of lies and despair
Blaming His holiness saying it isn't fair
You decided to lay down unprotected knowing that the consequences were severe enough to end your emotional life while bringing in another
You acknowledge the fact that you were sinning in his very presence and yet you still chose the lust of her rather than the love of Him. 
The almighty alpha and the omega .
The ruler of all
The king of all kings
Your father
My father 
The best friend to those without witness
The courage to those without strength 
You chose to deceive him only to give yourself gratification in sin
You went behind his back to steal a seed and create a life which you can't take care 
Worried about people seeing you, you slip under the blankets not knowing that He sees your ever move
Wanting materialistic things not knowing that what you don't obtain is not meant for you to have 
Yet through all the sin
All the heartache and pain you may carelessly cause
He still calls you His own 
Regardless if you defy Him and deny His name He still calls you His own
Boasting to the less fortunate believers that you have it all
The big cars
The big chains
The six bank accounts
But my brother wat you don have is faith in Him. 
Now whose less fortunate
Whose losing out in his kingdom 
Surly not the less fortunate believers or the mother takin care of three beautiful kids because the father walked out
Surly not the pastor or ministry workers who has faith in his name
To be right with our almighty savior you need to get right and live by the gospel instead of the material... It's now or never.