Stupid People

i swear people bug Me!!! the things they say or do. like today in class some girl just had to bring up something that wasnt her business and i wanted to punch her in the mouth! buh i cant cause im bigger and stronger and i would hurt her. Anyways the subject was touching and i went off on her. idk i jst wanna graduate so i can be around new and better people!! uhhhh stupidd girlS!

Oakdale Game

damnn i canoot believe we won. another game i thought we would lose. now we have to beat the red school and we off baby!! buff mainiac is this weeke and my baby girl is doing the most and i love it:) i got a bucket today filled with yummy treats to fill my rumbly tummy:) i love her opper much. cant wait till friday! short day again. amy we coming to yo place sister. i cant wait. then this weekend i get to hang with the baby..well i hope lol! well im going to bed goodnight my fellow bloggers!!

Overcoming It All

yesterday wasnt a good day for us...everything was falling and we both had our faults...i thought the way we handled things in the past would come back...but it was shocking, it didnt..we let eachother cool off, and then we talked. even tho the talked turned into a arguement at least we got it out. we hung up, then we both decided to let it go, and put it all behind us. im so proud of how we overcame this fight. i love her with everything i am, and i know she loves me just as much maybe more..nah im lying lol. but today was amazing. we got back on track. i told you this time around it will be different, nothing or anyone can break this. we are to wrapped into eachother. true love does exists, its never perfect buh when you take your time and push through the problems the love gets stronger. i love you baby girl

The Walk

Her smiling face, her beautiful dark brown eyes, her warm soft touch, her hand in mine. She sits behind me taking care of me, forcing me to take my medicine, before devoring my sweets. Sunday was the greatest day ever. We walked amongst the corpulant little rain drops. Listening to their sweet melody as they dispursed on the awaiting asphalt. Her hand griping mine ever so tightly seeking protection not in body but in soul. Drip, Drip, Drip. Thud, Thud, Thud the array of sounds makes our world come to life. We walk and talk, talk and walk,jumping over puddles and dodging vast oceanic spray coming from speeding cars. I get sprayed. We both laugh. When i look up all I see is her smiling face, her beautiful dark brown eyes, and her warm soft hand in mine.

I Love You

Sonara Game!

i thought we would lose, buttt we didnt!! they suck and we too beastly. i hate them though, i wanted to fight every person there. they play dirty and tried starting shit!! always hitting in the places you cant hit and other shit. they got all mad cause we whooped on that ass:) 42-13 yeah they are trashhhhh!! next game is gunna be to easy, and the VOL is ours! No One Elses! Ours The Buffaloes. Dont Start Nuttn Wont Be Nuttn. Ayeeeeeeeeee!

10/11/10

I love my girlfriend. im happy we are finally working this out and not paying attention to other people and their shit. this time everything is different. we both love eachother and we kicked our player ways out the door. She is a great gf:) she packs me lunch for my games, and drops me off at school! every friday gets better and better. i love spending time with her and our family, and they all love me as if i was their own. i cant wait til alabama, but i have to wait 6months after graduation to go, and being away from her will tear me up. i know she will come visit me, cause thats the type of person she is. after everything i put her through shes still here with me, holding me down and loving me. no other girl compares to her! baby i love you forever and ever and ever!!

Damn today was good and bad. I mean it was good because practice went real well and I was getting off as a goon and then the night rally my best friend Amanda was looking oh so good. Then on top of that I won homecoming king. They were all like " Jesse smith" I was like WTF me lol. Yea it was a pretty good day. Then my future girlfriend Jaz starts bitching at me like u did something wrong. She thinks I asked out some hoe and I really didn't so she needs to stop. Here we go again same shut different year. I know she still talks to jermaine so maybe that the reason I don't ask her out. Any but overall it was a really special day like I'm hella happy... Yeeee

Wow it seems like love is never found anymore. It's never achieved nor is it valuEd. What the he'll did I do that was so wrong? All I ever did was love you and your the one who chose t push me out if your life. Mayb you and jermaine should have stayed together and saved me all the heartache. Same shit different year and I'm tired of all the drama: al the trials and tribulations should hav been long gone already yet they keep popping back up. Damn can I ever catch a break. We talks about movingto Alabama together but how can we manage elsewhere when u can't even get over the ex man in the first place. I'm not dumb I know what goes on in ur text messages with him and it hurts me cuz you accuse me of cheating. Maybe we are never meant to be. Maybe life has no meaning. Maybe I'll just end it all with one quick bullet.. Cody I'm starting to miss u in heaven bit brother.

Now or never

Caught up in the web of lies and despair
Blaming His holiness saying it isn't fair
You decided to lay down unprotected knowing that the consequences were severe enough to end your emotional life while bringing in another
You acknowledge the fact that you were sinning in his very presence and yet you still chose the lust of her rather than the love of Him. 
The almighty alpha and the omega .
The ruler of all
The king of all kings
Your father
My father 
The best friend to those without witness
The courage to those without strength 
You chose to deceive him only to give yourself gratification in sin
You went behind his back to steal a seed and create a life which you can't take care 
Worried about people seeing you, you slip under the blankets not knowing that He sees your ever move
Wanting materialistic things not knowing that what you don't obtain is not meant for you to have 
Yet through all the sin
All the heartache and pain you may carelessly cause
He still calls you His own 
Regardless if you defy Him and deny His name He still calls you His own
Boasting to the less fortunate believers that you have it all
The big cars
The big chains
The six bank accounts
But my brother wat you don have is faith in Him. 
Now whose less fortunate
Whose losing out in his kingdom 
Surly not the less fortunate believers or the mother takin care of three beautiful kids because the father walked out
Surly not the pastor or ministry workers who has faith in his name
To be right with our almighty savior you need to get right and live by the gospel instead of the material... It's now or never.

The only achievment to succes is failure. If you fail to Aknowledge the truth the reality of life will eat you alive only to mold you as a better dreamer. If you lack the focus and desire you will never become what your hearts desire seeks. If you fail to see the light you will end up in the dark lost and confused. Stay on the possitive road and succes will come on a paved path. When the fork comes, choose the right route and know that what you've chosen makes sense to you in your mind. If you stray away from 
your focus, your sight, your dreams, and your will power to move on ahead in life will be lost in a beautiful tragedy called life!
                                    

Everything happens for a reason and love is just part of that circle. Yea the struggles are hard but you gotta remember that as much downs you have, your up should equally be as high if not more. Real love exists when your ups really out weigh your downs. Some love is deadly. Cauces one to commit suicide. Love is a serious thing and if one is to ever hurt some one out of love, that should be the most punishable circumstance. I've fallin in and out of love and I can give very good advice but can't fallow my own. Wow
Pt .2


Yes I love her but the love I have runs deeper through my veins  only to over come the very cress of my hearts desire
Burning in the forever continuing picture frame of her love
Bound by the everlasting hold of cupids
chains not knowing that I will never go free
 But also knowing that I would never want to escape
You see my love for her is not lust but actual live and yet I'm sealed in her heart and she's locked away in mine.
I guess it's time for me to fallow my own advice and make sure I treat her like she's my wife and not my girlfriend.